#CraveGod and take a step of faith!

You Are Invited – Write a post telling why you joined Made To Crave OBS and invite your readers to join us, too!

I have been struggling to figure out how I want to start off this Made To Crave study's blog hop.  You see as of late I have been working against the actual goals of why I signed up for Made To Crave... and to add insult I have started reading the book so that the weeks of double chapters I don't fall behind again.  

I joined the last study for A Confident Heart... and found that I was drawn to the study, because it made me have to step out of the box that I have found us living in.  The box that has put us in a place of fear... and a place of unknown.  The study forced me to start to think beyond the effects that have been forced upon my life because of the divorce I am facing.  And in many ways it allowed me to have the time to focus on God.  

I am praying that having joined Made To Crave, that I will be able to see the changes of stress eating when things are feeling out of control in my life.  A process that began a long time before I was married, but has only worsened since I got married.  And while I understand the fact that food is something that I can control.  I have to change the fact that instead of dealing with the emotions that tend to overwhelm me in tidal waves, I attempt to bury those feelings in food.  And while it works, it has the effect of increasing my clothes size and that adds to the stress that I feel.   Because seriously how can I find peace when I can't even have a mirror in my house.  And the additional drain on my body from the increase in my pain just is the icing on the cake.  

So, I have come to start to try to try a new way to change.  A way that puts God at the focus of the change.  And with a hope that despite the all of the dreams in my life that are dying, that this might be one of the ones that holds and grows into something new and beautiful.  So that I might be reborn from the ashes of a marriage that was full of abuse.  That I might find the confidence I need in God to start to step forward in faith for the path He keeps telling me to trust Him and begin to walk forward.  And that trust that He will shower blessings on my broken soul so that I can be a voice for the voiceless... and have the strength of God to step forward and share all of the pain that was inflicted behind closed doors.  And bring the reality of Domestic Violence out from behind closed doors and into the public view and into our churches so that we can minister to the broken women and children who are living in the shadows of abuse.  

So pray for me as I take another step forward towards God... and also thru the fires of the divorce.  So that I might become the picture of what God sees me as.  So I invite you to enter my world here as I participate in the latest Made To Crave On-line Bible Study with Proverbs 31...  So we can #CraveGod together...