Each day as of late has been a challenge, but today the blessings came in some real simple things... Like a friend getting minutes for her phone... And my pastor reminding me that in the midst of all the unknown and change that I have a spiritual home. Almost like I was getting another invitation to walk back thru the doors.
And I think I needed it. The last day that I was there my daughter wound up in the hospital and it as overwhelming. Not something I want a repeat of. And yet I need the support. I find that I feel like I am not getting anywhere currently... Like it is impossible to do anything correct. And yet... someone says I belong. And right now I need to belong, because I still feel like I am in the middle of the ocean without a compass. And hoping that I am getting the right direction, but also knowing that the currents are dragging me along much more than I can do myself.
But maybe that is okay. Because the currents could be guiding me to the path God wants me to be on. And yet my desire for control wants to direct my path. And that is never the best thing, because then I run away and hide. And right now hiding isn't going to fix the wanting to belong...
#thankful #Jan2014 #NewYear #Blessings
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