Blessings... 2014 ~ Day 14

I was asked...  
If I could live one day over again, what day would it be and why?


Honestly my first instinct was to say the day my husband tried to kill me - to get him help before he got so sick. Or the day my father got sick to tell them what was wrong with him. And then I am realizing that to go back and change anything would be playing god - and that would be worse than anything else that has happened... and what has happened could fill several books.

And that is when I realized that despite the pain and trauma that I have lived thru, that God has been with me thru it all.  At times I have felt so far away from God, and yet He was paving a path ahead of me to lead me away from the pain.  And it is something that I am still so thankful for the people God has used.  I still keenly miss the one who has gone onto God... and know that they all think they did nothing out of the ordinary.  So that amazes me and also creates a struggle in the fact that I wish there was something I could do to repay them.  And yet that currently is not to be...  because I am still barely holding on some days.  Money is always tight and expenses add up so quickly.  And simple things like a phone bill being paid to me is heaven sent.

So... I will end with this.  Sometimes the blessings we are seeking are hidden in the most simple of acts in life.

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