Normally it is in the ending hours of the day that I find the quiet to sit down and get on my computer. And yet today here I am in the early hours of the morning. As I write I am listening to the sound that I am most thankful for... my baby sleeping. I have found her to be a true blessing from God. One that at times makes it easy to forget the abuse that occurred while we were still living together with her father/my husband. And yet it is because of her, and my love for her that we are able to sleep and not worry about being hurt by him. She reminded me of God as she grew up and I was able to watch her become the young lady she is today. And it fueled my desire to raise her to love and fear God, not her father. And so with my heart and mind full of fear... I took the first steps away to safety knowing that I was doing the best thing that I could do in honoring God's gift of her to me. And that in time she would learn the reasons that I walked out the door. And that maybe she would learn to be thankful to God that I had left so that she could become the woman that God has intended her to become. And not become a pawn in the sick game her father plays.
And today it is my prayer to you that maybe you can catch a glimpse and understand how I can view my daughter as a blessing from God. Even when she is still dancing around the house and singing Christmas Carols and starting to plan in her mind our Christmas 2014. And how much of a blessing it is to know that she loves God, and is taking her first steps in learning to trust Him with the fact that it just might be better for us both to be away from her father.
#thankful #Jan2014 #NewYear #Blessings
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