Day 16... and all I can seem to see is the level of stress that seems to never disappear. And this is not helped with the fact of the divorce. I have to face it and deal with it. And yet I deal with the effect of it daily in our child. Anger that is directed at me, because the source of her anger is not here. He is sitting in jail, and currently that is a blessing to me and her. One that she just doesn't understand right now. With her father in jail... we are safer than we would be with him being free. And yet in her childish mind... she only see what she is missing. She see the fact that we are not living the life that she started with. That her father is missing. And yet age prevents her from completely understanding all the reasons that play into these changes in what she has known as normal.
So I continue, in knowing that God is blessing me with the fact that the one person who has broken us so much is locked into a place that he is controlled. And praying that one day my baby will understand the blessing that God has given us in safety and a place to call home, even if it is just for a while.
#thankful #Jan2014 #NewYear #Blessings
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