I am
so ready for it to be Time for a New Script in my life. And I need to
remember that... "While feeling unglued is all I've really known, today
my life can be different."
It is so easy for us to focus on all
the things that allow us to stay in the space we are in... All the
things others have done to wrong us... And yet... Is it really where we
are suppose to stay?
The last two years of my life
have involved police, courts, and more fires than I care to count that
have needed to be dealt with. And focusing on them... would send me
spiraling out of control. Just ask anyone who ever got close enough to
see the me inside the shell of protection that I kept up... The people
who were stubborn enough to ignore my body language... and fight to
break down the walls of protection around me brick by brick... Well
let's just say that they found a puddle of me... I literally could not
edit anything I said and couldn't begin to control a single emotion
around them. It was like drowning inside of the fortress that I had
built to protect myself... even with the holes where they had poked thru
letting the water out. You see... all the things I should have felt
all those many years... I had forced inside of storage containers... And
when the bricks came down... all the neat boxes just sort of evaporated
into shreds of confetti. And since I had spent so long ignoring that I
had feelings... They all came pouring out. And in many ways I am
thankful to one of my pastors... because in many ways he took the brunt
of the emotions. And for some reason his response was things will get
better... And my question was when.
Now I am beginning to see
that the when was already happening. Just because at that moment I
couldn't see a change didn't mean that the change was not happening.
And while lately these things still manage to make me unglued... I can
be thankful for the moments when they do not. I can enjoy the fact that
I can have a little moment of rest... and be able to cherish piece of
mind when I can find it....
So... It brings me to a question...
What one thing do you wish to change in your current script of life?
How can that change help you to stop living in the past? And how can it
help to allow you to take one small step towards the future? And if
you can't think of a single thing for yourself... Take a step into the
world around you and see how you might just be able to help someone else
start the process of writing a New Script for their life...
