Sleep?

Sleep... Isn't that what I am suppose to be doing right now? And yet that is the thing that seems to avoid me. My mind struggles to calm down. And yet today the conversation inside my mind is so different than it has been before. While it still talks about my husband... It has taken a different focus. That focus is on forgiveness. Not something I would begin to think about. It is like after so many months... things are changing with me. And a part of that is most likely from growing closer and closer to God. But sleep is still something I need.... Spending all night reading isn't going to help me deal with the day to day of life...