Riding the Roller Coaster

Being a single parent has it's ups and downs. Honestly today was one of those down days. It started with me still working on finding affordable legal representation. Which is honestly much harder than I want to admit. Given the fact that today I was going to meet with an attorney, only to find out he was called into court. I really can not be upset. I just wish I knew for sure that I had the help that I was going to need to fight this battle. And then in my saga of down days... I have been facing them to the point where everything that I think I should be accomplishing, honestly is not touched and my day is spent in bed. And that isn't going to get me the funds that I need to accomplish all that needs done. I know a part of me should just sit down and finish writing the book. And yet it seems like that is the one thing that I have no focus for lately. And yet I know it will happen. And I pray that once it is written... It will be published and then see the solution to the funds that I need. And to be able to use those funds to help others who are struggling with the same issues that I have faced would be a blessing beyond words. So I will keep working... Keep doing what I need to do... And just be thankful that the worst part of my day... A trip to the ER with my child wasn't more than her having really bruised her fingers. It was an accident... Doors do occasionally get closed on fingers when kids play together. And yet now she knows she needs to be safer. And she is all right. And in the end that is the best blessing a mother could have.