It is
amazing how much in our world boils down to having money. We live in a
world that one should be able to find free legal help. And yet that
exists mostly for criminals. Those of us who are struggling still find
that more doors close than are opened. And finding help thru the path
of fighting amendments to an existing PFA, Divorce, and even Custody is
near impossible without money. And one
would think that you might find somewhere that would be able to do it
for free. Or even to help by loaning you the funds. And yet every call
I make seems to lead to no where. So... I find that searching the
phone book makes the most sense and praying that it doesn't cost me
everything that I earn. And that makes me worry. I know we should not
fear the future and the new freedom that we have found in escaping
abuse. And yet... It is all so easy to travel down a road of panic.
Wondering how this new freedom is going to survive without enough money
to take care of all the things that this freedom seems to cost. And yet
a part of me knows that it will happen. I do not know how. I just
know that it must and that I must do my best to protect my child. It
isn't just about what I want. It is more about what she wants and
needs. And if she doesn't want to see her father and his family. Then I
must make sure that she gets what she wants. And that she feels safe.
And in a world where she has experienced more than any child should...
It is hard.
And yet I dream of a time where women facing these
same questions and expenses will find the finances to fight for their
safety and that of their children and not worry about the cost. And
find that all they truly need will be provided. And they will be able
to focus on what matters most. And be able to move forward with a sense
of peace in their hearts.
