Wow...
Has this week really flown by... My days were filled with camp and
what should have been sun... Alas the rain came and stayed. I know it
could be worse, but wet feet all the time is rough. I made it to church
today to hear about greed... and a unique definition of wanting more of
what you already have enough of. And it really started to make me
think... What do I have more than enough of.
I guess in this process of having my whole life lifted up and turned
around things have not been as important as people. I would rather
spend a day sitting around having fun with my daughter than to be
shopping and finding more things in life to fill our house. Things I
have come to realize do not move very easily. And what is the point of
having so much stuff when you constantly feel like you are going to need
to pick up and leave at a moments notice. I guess the fact that we
have done without so much of what we own for the past year and a half
has changed my view point of life. And yet in some ways going to camp
gave me a small wish list of things to own by next year... My own pair
of rain boots and a rain coat... And two rolling totes that are big
enough to fit a pillow, sleeping bag, and everything a person needs for
camp in one of them... Two because there are two of us.
But
one of the things I cherish about these last few days has been the time I
got to spend with my daughter. Trying new things with her and watching
her try new things on her own. Getting to see her face light up as she
realized that riding a pony isn't so bad... Teaching her how to put
rubber bands onto fabric to make our own tie dyed pillowcases to take
back to camp each year... And the list goes on... I have also learned
an important lesson in spending time at camp... It is okay that we
accepted financial help to attend camp... and it is okay to laugh again.
In being given the chance to listen to others talk about funny things
and even in watching the staff's face after cleaning up the bathroom...
It showed me that laughter still exists inside of me and in many ways
helped to lighten my heart. And while I can't live at camp forever... I
do hope that these lessons stay with me, because learning them again
might not be so enjoyable.
And then I got back to reality...
and to learn that the one thing I hate more than anything else has come
to find my little world... Gossip... I know we are all mortal and make
mistakes, but gossip in front of a small child with big ears tends to
find its way back to that person. And in the end it just hurts that the
gossip was said at all.
